No one needed to allow me to come into this world. Still, I feel like this is either an obligation or an opportunity. The reasons are unclear, and nothing was coming that had not been here before, but still… I don’t think it will really disappear.

The urge to win an argument is what held me back most often, and those who remind me of that are indeed, in a way, helpful. Still, their suffering does not differ from mine.

My idea of specialness is highly addictive, control is a persistent illusion, and even the notion of being “beyond being special and in control” can also be a silly story that I keep telling myself.

Sometimes, I feel I’ve got to… run away, I’ve got to… get away.

One option is always to consider avoidance. Why do I even engage? Why even bother?

I have successfully decided to spend my time on my own successfully; what is there to gain outside of my prior conceptions?

The forests and mountains are usually secluded, but the cities are if I look closely. Maybe I don’t need to ask them for permission.

The best way to lose is maybe when I just don’t enter the game.

It’s drivin’ me out of my mind! That’s why it’s hard for me to find.

Different houses are built next to each other, and I don’t think my style or choice really matters. I can have an opinion, but why don’t I take care of myself first? If I don’t know what’s up with me, how should I know what’s up with someone else?

I could let anyone win. Yes, I should. They might feel warm and even superior for a short time; I know how that is. But I remember how much my arrogance hurt others and how slight advantage it brought to me. By coincidence, I might be “lucky” in some cases, though.

We, like the breeze, flow straight out of our lids.

So, a seat in public is fine, but there is a lot to do and little to say, and it seems to be inverted sometimes. I try to see that my moment and place come first and that names and ranks come second. Maybe everyone had seen it similarly.

I think that everyone had moments when they realized they were wrong. Maybe they also had moments when they were criticizing others for being wrong. But why exactly did we even create this competition? Everyone surely wants to learn, but I think this does not need to be done right. Congratulations, anyway.

You are always welcome.