I was mistaken, and it doesn’t matter whether I could have avoided it or not. It’s obvious that I did not live up to other people’s expectations.

But what exactly did I have in mind? Or did I have anything in mind at all?

Or maybe it was even exactly what I had in mind but not what they understood. Sometimes, it feels like the ideas change quickly after I have them, but this sounds like more justification. I should know better by now, but I don’t.

What made me fail? Can I learn?

I closed my eyes and I slipped away.

That’s absolutely not the place where I enjoy being, and how can that be accomplished?

There must be a quick way to leave. And yes, sometimes I find it easier than expected. Sometimes it is a struggle.

But where did I end up? Is this really an escape? I am confused, as while the scenery changed and everyone and everything left, my body still feels present in the place where I had just been before.

It reduced after a while, but quickly, I began to regret that I had left. Why is that?

Stop pacin’, time wastin’!

Well, now that I am here… There seems to be a chance to slow down before going on. How did I come here again? How did these circumstances appear? Was I the cause of all this?

But I should probably not rest too long; I must be aware of my responsibilities. I don’t like to be neglectful and appear lost somewhere else. That’s not helpful for anyone involved.

Yet, who tried convincing me to disappear? That was mostly me again. And I am certainly no longer sure whether I should be listening.

This is rather serene, sure. But what should I do here?

Well, there’s just an empty space…

I could just stay here with me alone, or I could stay somewhere else together with everyone. That’s always an option. And even when I am in a room full of people, I can also remind myself how I am there on my own and everyone is there on their own.

So, when I meet others at the moment when they are on their own, I meet them best. And I think everyone, when they are on their own, could meet me best when I am on my own as well.

Then, suddenly, no one is lonely anymore.

You are always welcome.