What happens when I try to reject my self-rejection? I notice my mind’s habits—rejecting, rejecting the rejection, rejecting the rejection of rejection, then rejecting that rejection, endlessly spiraling into ever more subtle layers of the same pattern.

Could there be an alternative to this impossible loop? Not fighting against rejection but simply letting it exhaust itself. Not feeding it further attention or energy, not struggling to eliminate it, but allowing its natural dissolution.

How might reliable change happen through this approach? The slow fading of habitual patterns is not through my forceful intervention but through the quiet withdrawal of sustenance. A fire gradually diminishing when no new wood is added.

What shifts when careful attention turns toward what’s typically avoided? That counterintuitive movement of focusing gently on precisely what my mind wishes to escape. The anger, shame, and fear met directly with “neutral” awareness rather than resistance or indulgence.

That moment I knew I would never be the same!

The discomfort of this approach—isn’t it revealing of my habits? The strangeness of allowing difficult emotions to be fully expressed without feeding or suppressing them. It is so contrary to conventional “wisdom” that it almost feels artificial, yet somehow, it works for me.

What about those turbulent aftermaths of engagement—the mental leftovers of social interaction, the emotional echoes of vulnerability witnessed or experienced? My mind that wishes for serenity finds itself confronted with complexity instead.

Could embracing rather than avoiding these “problematic things” prevent their reappearance? When allowed to complete their natural lifecycle under the light of awareness, perhaps they dissolve more thoroughly than when pushed away, only to return later.

The pleasure is to play, it makes no difference what you say…

The precision that obsesses over exact measurements versus the insight that recognizes general direction—what might be gained from loosening this need for perfect judgment?

Everyone might recognize the tendency toward self-rejection and the possibility of letting it naturally dissolve. Everyone might know both the habit of avoidance and the potential freedom of direct engagement with what’s difficult.

You are always welcome.