What if avoiding my apparent issues becomes the real problem? I often tend to distract myself from real responsibilities, but ignoring them just makes them more prominent.

Is there a difference between true enjoyment and just escaping? Sometimes, I embrace life’s challenges; other times, I try to ignore them. It’s not about pleasure versus pain but about being whole versus feeling broken and defiant, lost in a weird contortion.

I see you walking real slow and smiling at everyone…

How does being aware change my gawky indulgences? Choosing to take a break is different from running away. Sharing joy is not the same as hiding alone.

What about my urge for a quick change? I want instant and complete results without real effort, thinking I can skip the harrowing journey. But there’s a balance between trying too hard and not trying at all. I shouldn’t force control over things I can’t do, nor should I ignore what needs more than my cursory attention.

That and this, these and those—no one knows.

Can ongoing struggles teach me something important? When I overthink my actions or stress over unchangeable factors… I may find insight when I finally pause.

Maybe everyone feels this itching urge to escape but also the friendly call to be present. Everyone could already understand the temptation of shortcuts compared to the profound value of a sometimes challenging yet gentle path.

You are always welcome.