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Don’t Let Me Be Misunderstood
How do we meet (when we meet at all)? I am probably not guilty until proven completely useless. Yet, I am lacking more than I am comfortable with. And even though I had predicted this would become better, in fact,…
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Funny How I Find Myself
What is left to give? It’s technically not really justifiable, and I maybe should expect something in return. But when I am already overstuffed, there is no point in ever accepting anything—this is not an emergency, not at all. Still,…
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Words Are Very Unnecessary
I can never be really self-assured. Often, I am just bored by suggesting to myself the following justification for my subsequent failure or success. But as I know some good things may follow as well, I keep messing around and…
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I Ain’t Happy—I’m Feeling Glad
Nothing exactly seems predictable if it is not a short-term goal. I have spent so much time adjusting my expectations and meticulously defending my prior decisions. But I am sure I could have decided everything differently and still have been…
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Won’t Get Fooled Again
I think I have been misled, probably by myself. Some other people said something, and I thought it might be relevant. But perhaps it wasn’t. I am not sure. Were they trying to be helpful? Did they succeed? Can I…
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Sick, Tired, and Homeless
I assume that random events brought me to these unfortunate circumstances, and I am not sure I will ever be able to find out all the reasons for all situations. I could instead perhaps consider to fix it. And if…
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I’ve Been Wandering Sideways
There are times when I want to feel competent. There are times when I want to feel done. And there are times when I want to feel balanced. The third seems like a charm. But is it? It feels burdensome…
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The Good Advice That You Just Didn’t Take
Even if it is not always just about me, is it about everyone else then? What about them? Do they care? I am not sure, and maybe I should not ponder that. My job is not dependent on their ideas,…
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Left to My Own Devices
Am I constantly listening to what I say? I maybe should, but it’s not always just my ideas, or at least I don’t think they are. I still have to take care of them. Problems have changed me, and I…
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Something’s Comin’ Over
I am convinced that there is great value in being limited. Too often, my reasonable assumptions were nothing but a waste of time. They made me believe that there was nothing but choosing between fight or flight. Something might be…
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Sometimes, I long to stay and not leave again. And I even think that would be possible just by telling myself I want that. Holding my position against change and surprise. But who am I to observe this matter…
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