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Where Is the Life That I Recognize?
Every day, I remember the stories I told myself. Some were quite entertaining, some silly, some irrelevant, and some very difficult. But many moments had their value even though they challenged me more than I would have preferred. That doesn’t…
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With the Birds, I’ll Share This Lonely Viewing
The visitors left, and I am here on my own another time. Somehow, a faint imprint of their presence remains. Do I want to keep it? I likely will not see it the moment I forget it. Do I want…
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I’m Exposed, and It’s No Big Surprise
I was mistaken, and it doesn’t matter whether I could have avoided it or not. It’s obvious that I did not live up to other people’s expectations. But what exactly did I have in mind? Or did I have anything…
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By No Means Average
No one needed to allow me to come into this world. Still, I feel like this is either an obligation or an opportunity. The reasons are unclear, and nothing was coming that had not been here before, but still… I…
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Strange Fear I Ain’t Felt for Years
My emotions are my own, that’s for sure. But do I trust them? I don’t know, but I may validate them by presenting them to the world. But is this really what I had in mind? There must be a…
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Captured Effortlessly; That’s the Way It Was
So, was that luck or skill? I ramble and argue, and the results are just what I could have wished for. But did I even want it? Had I something specific in mind? I am scared that I will mistake…
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Life is What You Make It, Can’t Escape It
I don’t like most duties and obligations. I irritate myself if I create expectations that might remain unfulfilled. Yet, sometimes, I need to commit myself. Is that really necessary? I am not alone but also not associated. I meet and…
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Now That Ain’t Workin’, That’s the Way You Do It
I can, indeed, slow down a bit. This has been a wild ride so far, and it likely will stay like this. Too often, the reluctance was just a sign of irritation, and as it was already more than enough…
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I Can See All Obstacles in My Way
For a moment, I thought it was over. For a moment, I thought I would be over. For a moment, I thought I could never be over. But all that didn’t change what happened. And I still keep planning and…
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Everything in Its Right Place
There were moments of acceptance and moments of rejection. But there were also moments of neither, and these were the most irritating: Am I happy or not? Am I serene or not? Am I clear or not? Should I care…
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Sometimes, my life moves quietly on its own, without anyone and anything holding it together. All these moments open and close as heartbeats, belonging to no one, asking nothing in return. It’s all yours. And then the stories gather…
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